Its’ been a Month since love brought pain to me. I never thought that by loving just one person wholeheartedly my heart would be covered by deep wounds and scars. It is true that when you love somebody you must accept the pain, struggles, and changes as the relationship goes on. But it is also true that when you love you will experience happiness, be blooming, and literally in love.

If you ask me if I am bitter for what had happened? If I regret a thing? Or wish that I’ve never known him? I would honestly say NO.

I believe that what had happened has a purpose. I know God allowed this thing, for me to learn, grow and overcome fear, pain, loneliness and sorrow. I thought that this will not come to end, not until today when I realized that this is life. Or should I say this is ‘MY’ life, a one roller coaster ride.

The feeling of falling in love is so exciting but life is not just about loving somebody special or somebody right for you but loving yourself first before everything else. This is to gain more respect, care, and love from others. Moreover, I received a forwarded text message from that someone I considered special the other day and it says, “When you know God loves you, you won’t be desperate for the love of others.”

True! I said to myself. Then it made me deem that in a relationship you should not rely on your own instinct and wants if you want to work things for good. It is about entrusting every bit second of it to God. If we are secure in God’s love we will also be secure that others will love us. Moreover, if we learn to love God first everything follows.

I admit that it is not easy to move on, to let go, or just forget the person. It’s a lifetime process. But who knows in the end my plans and dreams will come to reality if and only if we obey Him.

Sharing to you is a portion of a song entitled Love doesn’t have to hurt, sung by Atomic Kitten:

Then I suffer so much pain
But I only had myself to blame

Love doesn’t have to hurt
To feel good
It’s such a revelation
With you I can be myself
I know it should
Don’t have to cry
Don’t have to fight
Don’t have to die
Not after tonight
Show me
Love (Love)
Doesn’t have to hurt to feel good

Pain is not something we should take seriously. It is something we should take for granted for us to be a better person. Think that it is not only you who are experiencing pain. Every individual in this planet is experiencing pain, it’s just that some are only minor pain and some are major pain. You’ll just laugh at yourself saying “hindi lang pala ako ang nakakaranas nito.” Thus, it will serve as a therapy to heal the wounds.

No, I am not making any sense here. But yes I know I am single… but really I am not available.

I need to rest! My heart needs to rest! My eyes want to sleep! My arms and hands are starting to get cold! My lips are learning to smile again. And I am already willing to say goodbye for a while… yes, just for a while!

CRY ME A RIVER

You were my sun
You were my earth
But you didn't know all the ways I loved you, no
So you took a chance
And made other plans
But I bet you didn't think that they would come crashing down, no

You don't have to say, what you did,
I already know, I found out from her
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
And don't it make you sad about it

You told me you loved me
Why did you leave me, all alone
Now you tell me you need me
When you call me, on the phone
Boy I refuse, you must have me confused
With some other girl
Your bridges were burned, and now it's your turn
To cry, cry me a river

I know that they say
That somethings are better left unsaid
It wasn't like you only talked to her and you know it
All of these things people told me
Keep messing with my head
You should've picked honesty
Then you may not have blown it

Haters are always jobless & brainless. They waste seconds, minutes, hours, days just to talk about you.

unexpected this big fight can happens ):

I tell you I love you not as a habit. I tell you I love you because I really do and I mean it.

Twilight Words (:

[Edward's note to Bella:] "I'll be back so soon so
won't have time to miss me.
Look after my heart – I've left it with you."

I love you but I'm not in love with you -Bella to
Jacob. (Eclipse)

I know that she loves you, but I also know that
she loves me too." -Jacob to Edward. (eclipse)

"I AM HOTTER THAN YOU." -Jacob to Edward. hahaha

#person i hate most

Basically... 5 people. But if you ask me who i hate the most,
Ha, myself.

Cos i can't seem to stop making the same mistakes, over and all over again.
And it sickens me, to the bones.

why can't i seem to stop? :'(

Without music, life is empty. Without love, life sucks. Without a friend like you, life is impossible to face.

Life without love and friendship is like the sky without sun.

* i... miss you *

The loving words you speak
Make my problems disappear
You make me feel so good
I always want you near

DREAMS

1. To lay on a field with someone i love and share our dreams

2. To eye a star and name it after you and me

3. To write and publish my first book -but yes, i still don't even know what to write

4. To meet robert pattinson in person, and tell him how much i love him







5. To have my very own airplane

6. To have my own room in the attic

7. To be fluent in english, spanish, and french. Well, german would do great too :D

8. To visit united kingdom, czech republic, and somewhere in europe

9. To go to university of pennsylvania



10. To stay best friends with my three sweet bitches, ilya amira natasha,nur shahirah,siti nurfateha



11. Last... to be in your arms.

.Be thankful for who you are today, because it has
to be someone out there who'd kill just to be you.

30 DAYS

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

Day 2 — Your Crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

well, let's see if i can make it through :D

About a girl

She may not be your dream come true,
She may not be the shooting star you've always wished,
But she will always try to be that one girl you've always needed.

1) She won't mind sleeping a little bit later just to talk to you, the guy she's been in love with
2) You've always been in her prayer
3) She would call or text you, in her busiest time, just to know if you're doing alright
4) She would never get mad at you, because she never wants to hurt your feeling
5) She may get jealous some times, but never get it the wrong way, it means she loves you a little too much
6) She hates waiting, but when it comes to waiting for someone she loves, she won't care
7) She can be your best friend and your lover at a time
8) She always wants you to be happy, even if she is no longer the part of it
9) She always wants you to find a reason to smile, even if she is no longer the reason
10) She may fake her smiles, but never her tears and feelings
11) She remembers every little thing about you
12) When you're near, her heart beats faster and slower at the same time
13) When you talk to her, she can't seem to stop smiling
14) When you hold her hands, her heart melts like never before
15) When you brush her hair, her cheeks blush
16) When you kiss her, her knees go weak
17) When you laugh, it warms her heart
18) When you cry, it bleeds her heart
19) When you're away, she'll never stop loving and missing you
20) When you leave her, you take parts of her, and her heart with you
21) She loves you for who you are, not for how you look
22) She loves you in and out
23) However sweaty you may get, she won't mind to give you a warm hug
24) However annoying you may get, she can never get mad
25) She never forgets every little thing she's done with you
26) She never forgets the times that bring smiles to her face
27) She never forgets the one that flies her high, and it's you
28) She never forgets her anniversary date
29) She loves the way you call her name
30) She loves you.

did you know?

#1 kissing is healthy, well... didn't know that ;)
#2 bananas are good for cramps
#3 it's true, when guys are shy, that means they love you
#4 having someone rub your tummy when it hurts actually helps it
#5 89% of guys would want girls to make the first move
#6 girls love it when guys hug them from behind the waist
#7 chocolate makes you feel better
#8 girls love it when guys let them wear their hoodie
#9 guys think it's cute when you mess up
#10 a true friend WILL NEVER judge you
#11 there is only one person who's worth your tears
#12 if you had a dream about someone, then that person went to sleep thinking about you

You're cheese to my macaroni, peanut to my butter, fountain to my chocolate. You simply.. complete me.

Missing you could turn pain into pleasure if i knew you were missing me too.

“I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do...I'm sorry I can't help myself, I'm in love with you.”

* SYMBOLS *

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♦ ♣ ♠•◘○◙♂♀♪♫☼►◄ ↕‼¶✿ ๑ ♥ ۩ ۞ εїз ஓ ☣ ﺴ ✈ ☊
░ ▒ ▓ █ ▄ ☺ ☹ ☻ ㋡ ㋛︹ ︺ ︻ ︼ ︽ ︾ ︿ ﹀ ﹁ ﹂
﹃ ﹄ ﹊ ﹋ ﹌ ﹎ ﹏〿 〷 〶 〠 〛 〚 〙 〘 〗 〖
〕 〔 〒 】 【 》《 〄 ღ ♔ ♕♖ ♗ ♘ ♙ ♚ ♛ ♜ ♝ ♞ ♟
☡ ☢ ✉ ☑ ☒ ✔ ‼ ¤ ☚ ☛ ☜ ☝ ☞
☟ ☀ ☁ ☂ ☃ ☄ ★ ☆ ☎ ☏

* LETS USE THiS "

MF =» MotherFucker
LMAO =» Laughing My As* Off
LOL =» Laughing Out Loud
AFAIK =» As Far As I Know
AFK =» Away From Keyboard
ASAP =» As Soon As Possible
BAS =» Big A$$ Smile
BBL =» Be Back Later
BBN =» Bye Bye Now
BBS =» Be Back Soon
BEG =» Big Evil Grin
BF =» Boyfriend
BIBO =» Beer In, Beer Out
BRB =» Be Right Back
BTW =» By The Way
BWL =» Bursting With Laughter
C&G =» Chuckle and Grin
CICO =» Coffee In, Coffee Out
CID =» Crying In Disgrace
CNP =» Continued (in my) Next Post
CP =» Chat Post(a chat message)
CRBT =» Crying Real Big Tears
CSG =» Chuckle Snicker Grin
CYA =» See You (Seeya)
CYAL8R =» See You Later (Seeyalata)
DLTBBB =» Don't Let The Bed Bugs Bite
EG =» Evil Grin
EMSG =» Email Message
FC =» Fingers Crossed
FTBOMH =» From The Bottom Of My Heart
FYI =» For Your Information
FWIW =» For What It's Worth
GAL =» Get A Life
GF =» Girlfriend
GFN =» Gone For Now
GMBA =» Giggling My Butt Off
GMTA =» Great Minds Think Alike
GTSY =» Glad To See You
H&K =» Hug and Kiss
HABU =» Have A Better 'Un
HAGN =» Have A Good Night
HAGU =» Have A Good 'Un
HHIS =» Hanging Head in Shame
HUB =» Head Up Butt
IAE =» In Any Event
IC =» I See
IGP =» I Gotta Pee
IMNSHO =» In My Not So Humble Opinion
IMO =» In My Opinion
IMCO =» In My Considered Opinion
IMHO =» In My Humble Opinion
IOW =» In Other Words
IRL =» In Real Life
IWALU =» I Will Always Love You
JMO =» Just My Opinion
JTLYK =» Just To Let You Know
KIT =» Keep In Touch
KOC =» Kiss On Cheek
KOL =» Kiss On Lips
L8R =» Later
L8R G8R =» Later 'Gater
LHM =» Lord Help Me
LHO =» Laughing Head Off
LHU =» Lord Help Us
LMAO =» Laughing My A$$ Off
LMSO =» Laughing My Socks Off
LOL =» Laugh Out Loud
LSHMBB =» Laughing So Hard My Belly is Bouncing
LSHMBH =» Laughing So Hard My Belly Hurts
LSHTTARDML =» Laughing So Hard The Tears Are Running Down My Leg
LTNS =» Long Time No See
LTS =» Laughing To Self
LUWAMH =» Love You With All My Heart
LY =» Love Ya
MTF =» More To Follow
NRN =» No Reply Necessary
NADT =» Not A Darn Thing
OIC =» Oh, I See
OL =» Old Lady (significant other)
OM =» Old Man (significant other)
OTOH =» On The Other Hand
OTTOMH =» Off The Top of My Head
PDS =» Please Don't Shoot
PITA =» Pain In The A$$
PM =» Private Message
PMFJI =» Pardon Me For Jumping In
PMP =» Peed My Pants
POAHF =» Put On A Happy Face
QSL =» Reply
QSO =» Conversation
QT =» Cutie
ROFL =» Rolling On Floor Laughing
ROFLAPMP =» ROFL And Peeing My Pants
ROFLMAO =» ROFL My A$$ Off
ROFLMAOAY =» ROFLMAO At You
ROFLMAOWTIME =» ROFLMAO With Tears In My Eyes
ROFLUTSROFL =» Unable to Speak
RTFM =» Read The F****** Manual!
SETE =» Smiling Ear To Ear
SHID =» Slaps Head In Disgust
SNERT =» Snot-Nosed Egotistical Rude Teenager
SO =» Significant Other
SOT =» Short Of Time
SOTMG =» Short Of Time Must Go
SWAK =» Sealed With A Kiss
SWAS =» Scientific Wild A$$ Guess
SWL =» Screaming with Laughter
SYS =» See You Soon
TA =» Thanks Again
TGIF =» Thank God It's Friday
TCOY =» Take Care Of Yourself
TILII =» Tell It Like It Is
TNT =» Till Next Time
TOY =» Thinking Of You
TTFN =» Ta Ta For Now
TTYL =» Talk To You Later
WAS =» Wild A$$ Guess
WB =» Welcome Back
WTH =» What/Who The Heck (or sub an 'F' for the 'H')
YBS =» You'll Be Sorry
YG =» Young Gentleman
YL =» Young Lady
YM =» Young Man

How Do I Love Thee?

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
my soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of every day's
most quiet need, by sun and candlelight.

I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love with a passion put to use
in my old grief, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
with my lost saints; I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! And, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.